"My job is too important to me because I don't have access to public funds and benefits."
I was trying to be myself and trying to be strong when I first got my HIV diagnosis... but at the same time—as awful as it sounds and as superficial as it sounds—I can't afford to feel sorry for myself financially. I can't afford to sit in a corner and cry my eyes out for a week. Sometimes I wish I could, but I can't.
My job is too important to me because I don't have access to public funds and benefits. I know a lot of people I've worked with who've been on benefits of one type or another at various points, and that's helped them financially. But even if I were eligible for public funds, I wouldn't go onto it anyway. I'm only eligible for a British passport in the next 4-5 years... If something goes wrong I'm under pressure to clean it up and fix it myself!